Willing to Burn

top: minkpink (similar here)// skirt: vintage (loving this one) // jacket: vintage (loving this one) // shoes: schutz (similar here) // bag: loeffler randall (on sale here!)
photos by common dove photography

"She was never crazy. She just didn't let her heart settle in a cage. She was born wild, and sometimes we need people like her. For it's the horrors in her heart which cause the flames in ours. And she was always willing to burn for everything she has ever loved."

Despite all of my big talk about being strong and putting up walls I'm actually an incredibly sensitive and passionate person. In the past I used to beat myself up about not being stronger, especially over the last several months trying to prove to everyone that despite going through a divorce and my life being turned upside down that I'm "ok."

Well, you know what, its exhausting trying to be strong all of the time. I feel things so intensely that sometimes I don't know how to come back from them.

Recently some important people in my life made me realize its ok to let myself be affected by things the way I do and that being constantly stoic is not healthy. Using what you have been given instead of trying to hide it away is always a better alternative…… This year I'm using my empathy and sympathy for greater causes because with everything going on lately I let myself crawl into a selfish hole.

My walls are still up guarding my heart because its not just me that is affected by who I choose to love…..but its time to start embracing my annoyingly passionate disposition.

The Long and Short of It

sweater: similar here // leather skirt: vintage (loving this one) // boots: shoemint (similar here) // sunnies: prada (similar here)
photos by common dove photography

OK, I'll admit it, I have a bit of a complex about being "petite." In fact, I loath the term "petite" itself; it sounds like you are weak and unable to fend for yourself. Yes…..I'm short…..and blonde……and bubbly…..and with all of that comes a certain stigma. For instance,  people like to call you "cute" because you are small…..cute….really? If I were my size and about 6 inches taller I can guarantee you people would not call me "cute." However, with all of my ramblings about my height I'm starting to learn that there are certain benefits to being Polly Pocket size….. like being able to wear super short vintage leather skirts with moto boots and not looking as scantily clad as a tall person would. But the best part is realizing you can fit under a cannon…..suck on that my vertically gifted friends.

Every Day Life

top: dress worn as top via shopbop (similar here) // shorts: similar here // bag: vintage chanel (loving this one) // shoes: zara (similar here) // sunnies: prada (similar here)
photos by common dove photography

This is me in my every day life…..usually my days are spent trekking through the woods…..at the park…..or down on the dock checking crab pots and spider webs. Have I always seen myself working a full time job in the fashion industry that required heels and pencil skirts every day…..yes…… but in actuality having been a stay at home mom to a crazy dirt loving little boy for the past 3 years has made me appreciate the fact that I don't have to work in an office environment to let my personal style come through. So…..moms in your yoga pants….no offense but take note :)

Leather, Strappy Heels and Cars Band Aids

top: helmut lang (similar here) // skirt: vintage via bolo vintage (loving this one) // jacket: old, similar here // shoes: shoemint (strikingly similar here) // bag: balenciaga // sunnies: prada (similar here)// necklace: stella & dot
photos by molly stillman

Avintage brown mexican lace skirt (notice I did not say a Tibi midi skirt or neon tulle tutu) was just the ticket to make me feel beautiful for a Mother's Day lunch. It became a little more 'me' paired with other neutrals, a leather jacket and some black strappy heels. Oh and of course several Cars band aids add the perfect touch.

Cheers to 2 Years

top: gap (available here) // skirt: gap: (similar here) // denim jacket: gap (similar here) // coat: old, lurving this one// boots: schutz (available here) // bag: 3.1 phillip lim (similar here) // sunnies: ray ban (similar here) // necklaces: tiffany and co (available here) & stella and dot

Well, today marks 2 years of writing this little spunky/neurotic blog. This past year was all about change….the first part of the year I dyed the bottom half of my hair pink because well, I always wanted to…..then in the spring I took a 3 month hiatus because something as lighthearted as blogging can take you to deep, dark places…..during that hiatus I chopped 12 inches of hair off…….in the summer I started back up and THEN a couple of months later changed the name. Looking back now everything that happened to the blog last year was necessary and I'm happy with the results.

If you would have told me 2 years ago that I would be standing here wearing denim on denim……on denim, with leopard AND leather over the knee boots I would have thought you were crazy…and now I have to say this is one of my favorite outfits of all time. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has kept up with me and came back after my hiatus….it has meant so much to hear your thoughts about the blog and it keeps me going in the midst of this insane ride called motherhood. I started this blog after becoming a mom because I had no clue what my style was and over the past 2 years I have definitely learned what I love and what I loathe…….Thank you to Molly for helping me take pics when you were about to give birth to your own beautiful baby girl (and after sweet baby Lilly came!), thank you to Sheree for inspiring me every day and keeping me going, thank you Ellen for everything (I can't wait to help you start your own blog!) and THANK YOU soooo much to my friends and family who continue to visit and support the blog…….entering my 3rd of blogging I KNOW its going to be a great year because of you guys :)

New Things: (see original post here)

Day 3: Tried 2 new dishes at my favorite sushi place (Crudo and Creme Brûlée Cheesecake)

Day 4: Made a new recipe of Vanilla Peanut Butter Triffle (low carb/low sugar/ and low fat mind you)

Day 5: tried a new combo of camo with lace (lurve) and tried the Charcuterie Plate at my favorite French restaurant……holy heaven